my lil bro’s dwn with CHICKENPOX!! gosh... get well soon!!<3 he's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute man! hahahahhahahahs.. in love with him lols...((:
there’s 15kids in his childcare class.. den now there’s only left with 4kids... lols.. like, so pathetic can.. and others were dwn with chickenpox! spread so fast...
pissed by jus now those who asked me to play o2.. not exactly pissed.. jus very irritated.. and in msn... come on, duh. grow up lahs.. whoever the person is... booos.
you are missed, at 2:07 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FRANCESCA ! your pressiee will be belated... =x sorry hope you dont mind...
band practices gonna start EVERYDAY from tmr onwards.. CVMB GOGOGO! JIAYOUS! we will never break it! clarinetists chiong ahhs! we will prove to everyone that we are not hopeless and useless! WE CAN DO IT! woohoos... ((((:
selfish... what a word to be used.. why dunn you stand in my position and think for me.. it’s isn’t easy lor.. haiis. sadded... yahs, my fault... all my fault... jus take it as it is den... and of cos im sure the section will be alright...
gotta work very very very hard for syf!!! gold!!!! honour is a bonus... but, whatever it is.. we will at least maintain gold!! CVMB simply rock! hahahahahahas.
*hope for everything to be fine...
CONCENTRATE CONCENTRATE CONCENTRATE!!! i MUST MUST MUST give in my fullest attention in class and in band!! for now have to chiong hard for band... first priority.. aft syf, chiong all the way for studies!!! hope i can do it bahhs.. ppl, mus motivate me to STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! and become a bookworm.. ((((: hahahahahas.. JIAYOUS everyone!
feel so terrible to quarrel with you... someone i can chat so well with.. and yet, for this thing... you dunn even understand.. but, suan le.. everything will be fine as time goes by...
i think im madded lahhs... jus feel so headache... as in bcos of some things lahhs... and so... have to let it all out in my blog.. so hahahahs. yahs...
*smile, smile, smile! i tell myself..
really confused.. i don’t wann that feeling... it is certainly terrible and horrible..
*pray that it will be smth gud...
you are missed, at 11:20 AM
i flunked my maths st... gosh.. maths leiis.. haiis.. so sadded!
jus hope that they will buck up.. and the ning ju li!! CLARINETISTS mus ROCK ever... the hard times we can certainly go through! JIAYOUS! bonding....
haiis, so sadded.. emo-ed. but im sure the section will be alright.. hope that one day all of you will think differently of us.. we are not how bad you guys see us as.. haiss.. how i wish to have the bonding in the section and be close like the past... SMILE(:
hmms, i see weird-ness in your face.. hahs.
you are missed, at 2:59 PM
hmms, these few days didn’t blog i suppose.. so yahs, gotta blog NOW! (:
dunno why..mayb im being sensitive or smth? i can easily guess what’s on others mind..so many times alr..i can jus read one’s
i mind..or mayb all these are what im supposed to know?
TM!
arthur told me out of nowhere there’s additional three more trouble makers. that’s the KING (mr lee jian hao), Prince (mr donavan loy jian hui), and the Princess (miss tan xin yu).. hahas.. kinda shocked. lols..
i knew what you guys are up to..so no point being so secretive my beloved friends..don’t repeat the history..and of cos not only this..i knew a lot of things..and im sure i will feel much much better if i didn’t realize it..haiis..
26th MARCH 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTEL GOH SI EN!!! Sorry, didn’t get to blog 2days ago.. so yahs. belated, but i know you won’t mind.. so... hahahahahahs. stay cheerful! (((:
and hope you like the surprise.. =D
NE QUIZ
took the NE quiz on monday.. and im a EXPERT BUILDER! wahahahahahahas. so happy.. lols..
SCHOOLING
these few days in sch nothing much lahhs.. study study hmwrks hmwrks.. mon’s st, goshh.. big big big mess man.. I didn’t manage to finish.. took my time to do lahhs.. so, who to blame? sadded.. tmr gotta get bac the results.. im mentally prepared. hahahas..
JIAYOU, JIAYOU, JIAYOU for my studies! JIAYOUS PGD! strive for the best man!!
will be going to sch with van and hakim from ytd onwards.. thanks van’s mom for driving us to sch! ((((: THANKS!
BAND
sectional-ed on tues.. gosh, i tell you.. seriously cannot make it.. hais... sadded lahs.. must work EXTREMLY hard for it! BUT, provided you guys come for sectionals.. and pls... COME for sectionals.. syf coming le still so slack.. sectionals also dunn wanna attend.. how to go for whatever we want.. seriously no time le.. I don’t think you guys feel the stress lohhs.. haiis.. PRACTICE HARD! WE CAN DO IT DE! chiong~~! (:
hais,i seriously don’t think it’s worth waiting..and im nth so great for the sacrifices..don’t waste your time and energy and whatever..and now...ohmygosh..trouble man..i hope nth will spoil our friendships..im really a trouble maker man..haiiss...
you are missed, at 10:50 AM
escape theme park..
ENJOY THE PICS:)
you are missed, at 6:23 AM
ytd concert was a big mess! =X clarinetists gt to come bac for sectionals alrights..!! hais..
was supposed to meet clt for lunch before band.. but didnt go.. went to the doc before sch.. was late by 10mins.. den when we were searching for scores in the band room, felt so headache and giddy.. as if im going to faint.. but of cos didnt faint lahs.. and the worst thing is i had a bad stomach ache! gosh lahs.. plus the cough and flu and blocks.. can die man.. den all the way to salvation i was having a bad ache.. had to bear with it lahs.. set up warm up tune up.. the band wasnt gd.. hais.. during rehearsal the band didnt do a job.. and imagine i play with my stomach aching.. so terrible.. hais.. den blablabla.. dinner.. ate duck rice.. yahs.. den went bac tune up.. and stuffs.. me and munir was in tune den others was damn sharp.. scolded by mrer.. den perfomance.. didnt do well either.. saturday night was good... but i didnt really shout, gt no voice.. enka vol.1.. super rubbish lahs.. like so long nbr play den everyone forgotten lahs.. haiis.. bac to sch.. so tired.. accompanied them to eat den gone bac home.. haiis.....
they wanna meet for dinner ltr... dunno whether to go anot... hais..
you are missed, at 3:25 AM
oh gosh.. running fever now.. and blocks all over! haiis.... fan...
so sorry, couldn't meet the clarinetists for lunch.. =(
you are missed, at 2:14 AM
woohoos.. now at fion's hse.. tdy damn xinku!! nose blocked, ear blocked, throat blocked!!!! everything also blocked..!!! arghhs. den my voice so weird canns.. the sound like cant come out.. den alot of flam!! WHOLE DAY you know.. gosh.. feel so terrible.. very tired also.. hahas. anw, jus now sch-ed den chi remedial den band.. cant really hear in band lahhs.. the sound sounds so stucked.. XINKU!!!!! haiis... =X
you are missed, at 12:28 PM
sat went escape with min, pj, kim, rt, don, andy, px, bennett, munir & josh.. VERY FUN! handsup! woohoo.. =) aft that meet jess at cp den aft awhile went home.. bused with rt, he's such a typical s'porean.. hahahahaha..
sun woke up early in the morning den went whitesands to meet rt and don.. both were late.. we were supposed to meet at 8am.. den guess wad ? both woke up so late.. and that stupid rt woke at EIGHT!! waited and waited, den both of thEm reached at the same time.. da nan ren.. hahas. took 88 to TPY HDB hub to support JOASH singing "tong hua"! he didn't get in.. sadded.. haohan got in with the song "shi jie wei yi de ni".. aft that went bennett's hse.. did my eng nov1991 pp.. managed to finish it lahhs.. den the rest of them were in the room playing o2 and majong.. aft that went in to view the photos.. super funny! how i wish the time would slow down.. so fast.. O lvls coming.. have to study alr.. no time le.. haiis.. gonna be a busy yr.. good luck to me man.. haha.. hmms, changed to pj's hse at ard 7plus i think.. watched the chnU charity show.. not bad lahhs.. and pj's mum is super funny and lame.. hahas.. gt mother gt daughter ahhs.. that's why u see pj so lame.. wahahas.. home-ed at 10plus 11.. yupps..
sorry...
tdy went sch.. slept during morning assembly.. very very superly tired.. the assembly eats into the maths period.. so left with 15mins for maths.. didn't listen in class.. did my eng speech.. my brain's dead lahs.. tired.. =X next period was eng lesson.. couldn't finish of cos.. there's 5speeches to do.. and im only half way through the first one.. so yupps.. rushed for eng like mad.. even till aft sch.. managed to complete at 3pm.. really no time during holi.. band for 5days.. but at least was fun and fruitful.. lols..
JIAYOU, JIAYOU, JIAYOU! =)
you are missed, at 12:33 PM
woohoos.. bac frm camp ytd.. although only 2D1N, but still not too bad lahhs.. hahas. okayys, first day, which is the 15th mar (thurs), reported to sch at 0730.. took all our stuffs and board the bus.. reached shuqun at dunno wad time.. hahas.. den set up, settled down in their band room.. the room was kinda small lahs, so have to squeeze.. den some of us even have to sit on the pavement.. hahas, anyway played sunrise and j-j.. not too bad lahhs.. ahhhas. had lunch, den went bac play play play.. den in the evening still play play play.. lols.. evening went down to the canteen to help riverside with their challenge and sunrise.. aft dinner, went bac to band room play again.. play through two new pieces and saturday night.. yupps, den free time till 11+.. actually wanted to go view the dunno wad band dvd, den in the end went canteen saw the guys playing some stupid games lahhs.. so we joined them.. hahahas.. very fun lahhs, very funny.. lols.. play play play till ard 11pm den joash performed for us.. his audition songg.. waahhaahhaas. nthh much lahs for the day.. went bac to our bunk and SLEEP! ahhahas..
second day, which is the 16th mar (fri), woke up, morning pt.. did some exercises den run 10rds ard the courtyard.. linlin injured her leg.. haiis.. u noe when i see her bandage feel so pain man.. lols.. as in it looked super pain.. yea.. den ate breakfast, set up instru den play again.. den zhenghua was in to listen.. aft that mr er cut down players, ask the few of us to stay to help them lahhs.. i was like, super hungry.. but have to stay lahhs.. went dwn for lunch den aft that went sectional on saturday night.. havent even started, mr lee called.. ask some of us to teach riverside.. so went up, teach teach teach for ard 1hr++ den went HOME at 330pm.. wanna stay longer lahhs, i love camping! wahahhs.. but, too bad lahhs. went home aft we were dismissed.. hahas.
tdy, which is the 17th mar (sat), i gonna go ESCAPE ltr.. i mean soon lahhs.. hahahas. (:
i think everything's alright now! woohooS! =D
you are missed, at 3:36 AM
im always the one being blamed.. i dunn think im the only one.. but have your understood before your judge? den have your ever thought of how i felt? so now is like 3 against one? and im in the wrng again? if that's the case.. sorry..
i have nth to say..
dont know what to say..
jus feel so terrible..
in the world of darkness..
hais.. no one really understand me..
the water started running again.. emo*
you are missed, at 12:48 PM
seriously headache now.. hais.. everything in the world is making me crazy.. all of you dont understand at all.. is like have your ever thought of how I felt? and suddenly I was being lectured.. wad I treat your for.. I shld be asking this qns instead.. everything your do only involves the three of you.. everytime when we were tgt, den it will be like ending up I was alone.. do your noe that.. that’s how I felt lohhs.. your jus continue playing so happily, and I was eventually being pushed out of that grp, within the circle.. did your notice that? did your think of how I wld feel? how wld your feel if it's your.. and wad your did was jus continue having fun.. didn’t even noe that I was out of it.. i always feel so damn extra but none of you noe abu it.. in fact I didn’t even wan to talk abu it.. I don’t wan to bring it up, because I noe it wont be given a damn.. and so wad, I will never be correct.. you have 3 of you.. and I am only the one.. whatever I say, I will be wrng.. whatever I do, I will nbr be correct.. everytime someone is feeling unhappy your will be like so affected.. and will care so much for them.. den when I was feeling down, does anyone noe it? none of you care.. your jus continue having fun laughing and whatever.. not even a “what happened?” was asked. NONE of you were even concerned.. i always reject your.. the 3 of you always plan everything tgt, den i don’t even noe anything.. everytime i was the extra one.. nbm, let it be den....
sadded..
this few days, bills are jus getting higher and higher.. I don’t noe why... hais..
you don’t even noe that I care.. but do you care?
i really hope that one day they will noe how i feel..
no one understand..
you are missed, at 6:46 AM
JUST saw the post.. yahs, tears jus flow down like nobody's business.. i dunno why it ended up like that.. enemy.. is that really what you want.. from your heart do you really want the ending to be like that.. i dont think so and i will never believe.. friends gone forever.. do you noe how strong this few words are? hais..i will NEVER give up and you will NEVER succeed!
you are missed, at 3:01 PM
hais.. headache.. not becos im sick, but jus thinking of some things which made me very headache.. hais.. i think i've made up the decision.. but everything still lies with fate i think.. mayb rt's right.. i dunno.. fan!! some things happened, made me think thru.. alot, alot, alot.. I WANNA NOE WHY! im having question marks all over.. not knowing wad to do.. wad's wrng.. i wanna noe.. can you pls tell me WHY?? *cries
friends are not in your dictionary anymore.. hais, i really dunno wad to say alr.. but, i'll nbr accept the fact that you are not our friend anymore.. will not accept that you delete away the word "friends" in your dictionary.. friends.. that's something i treasure most.. something most of us treasure most.. i believe you do too.. why make yourself live in a lonely world?? why force yourself to isolate from us?? why, why, why?! i really dont understand.. why must you hurt yourself and hurt all your friends so deeply? do you know how i exactly felt when you say that's the last day you'll talk to us, when you say you are going to isolate from us, when you say you'll make us hate you, when you say those hurtful words? have you ever thought of how i felt? how all your friends felt? do you know how much you've hurt us? you are the friend i treasured, the friend i trusted, the friend i could talk to, the friend who lent me a listening ear, the friend i cared for, a special friend.. rmb the times we lame tgt, cracked jokes, playing and having so much fun.. nicknames and everything.. you were there to console me, share your joys and sorrows.. when you told me everything, i dropped down tears.. do you know that.. i'm like losing so many things at that short moment of time.. now that we cant console each other, approach each other to chat, share the joys, share the sorrows, share the tears.. how could you bring yourself to say out those hurting things.. no matter what, you are still my friend.. someone special.. someone i trust.. REMEMBER, "you can never discover new oceans unless you leave the sight of shore".. you should noe what it means, and what i meant..
i really have lots of question marks all over.. on everything, everyone.. i really wanna noe WHY! why this.. why that??? i really have many things i wanna noe.. wanna find out.. wanna those ppl to tell me.. first time i felt so terrible.. im caught in a dilemma.. really dunno wad to do.. what can i do.. how exactly everything happen.. how did this started.. what's the cause of it.. someone, could you pls tell me.. this stupid thing made me emo.. hais.. really hope someone to tell me why.. i really hope so.. *sadded
when there's love, there's TEARS*.
im tearing, who noes.. who cares..
you are missed, at 2:43 PM
quite sadded this few days..
dunno wad happened lahs but jus feel sadded.. hahs..
hmms..
things jus goes in the wrong way..
fate bahs.. how i wish sometimes somehow somethings could be switched..
hais.. =(
holidays are filled with homeworks! =X
tdy all the other lvls are having camp.. den left with the sec4 and 5.. briefing for the whole morning.. sit in the hall for so many hrs, all our buttocks almost rot.. hahas. aft that went bac to the classrooms to do the resume and cover letter.. boring! everyone was like so tired all gonna slp.. finally at ard noon we went out of sch to give out the flyers for newspaper collection on fri.. at least much much better den staying in sch to rot.. finally aft sch.. but there's chem lesson! lessons and lessons.. hais.. stayed in classroom to do some hmwrk aft the lesson till 4plus.. hahas. went cp ate kfc.. den min and ion went to buy ice-cream.. buy le no return de.. hahas.. they did lahs, jus that they took like forever to buy an ice-cream.. in between a grp of ppl came den the topic was like.. den me and ai nbr even answer them lahhs.. so bc.. hahas. den when we leaving one of them down there "wei, blablabla (sensored)" LOLS! den i nbr ans them.. hahas, so dao.. but cool ma.. lols. went popular and home-ed.. on the way saw someone and someone wors.. so sweet.. anw, yahs.. another boring day..
chatted with rt on9.. ill again.. so needed doc's consultation.. cheer up! dunn be so sadd.. life is full of ups and downs.. happiness and sorrows.. so dunn give up on anything.. there's solution to everything.. im sure everything will be alright.. dunn emo le.. rest well bahs.. =))
im cheering ppl up but jus cant cheer myself up.. haa haa haa ...
you are missed, at 2:16 PM
very busy in the past few days.. didn't have the time to blog too.. anw, march holidays are coming but i've only 2 days free.. and with the amt of hmwrks, ha-ha-ha.. holidays are worst then normal school days.. hais, stressed. hmms, have been feeling smth's weird recently.. yupps.. i've been guessing but jus dunno wad's wad.. seriously hope to know abu it, but.. i doubt so....
i wanna noe wad's going on.. hais..
oh yahs, wanna tell this person.. it's not that everything will turn out to be whatever you expected. yes, not everyone is trustworthy. but, first make yourself worth for ppl to trust.. sacrifices is definitely needed to be made before you can succeed in smth. promises is jus smth to push you along to reach your goals.. but empty promises are nth. so, get bac to wad you shld be doing and stop breaking your promises.. be sure of what you wann, something that you will never ever regret, something that do you good..
seek for opportunities ; make things happen
not vice-versa.
you are missed, at 2:23 PM
